Wow, my latest chapter of 'Fecund Knight' really has people going. And they're getting it, I think, although somewhat reluctantly.
Yes, I am an Arthurian fangirl from waaaay back. I love the mythos. I've seen so many movies and read so many books with different takes on the same subject. What was the ultimate tragedy of King Arthur? The love triangle with Arthur/Lancelot/Guinevere? The sin of incest creating a force beyond Arthur's control (Mordred)? Or just that human nature always belies the good in men eventually . . .
Can I say that I have always felt a kinship and empathy toward the character Mordred?
The first time I saw 'King Arthur' last summer, I was appalled. I was pissed they even used the names of the knights. It took me a while to get into it, to see the beauty of it, the possibilities, even within the small scope of what we saw on screen. I was your typical convert -- more passionate simply because it took me so long to come over. But what was missing was this aspect of tragedy. Having Lancelot and Tristan die at the end is horrible, but it doesn't smack of tragedy. (Actually, it smacks of lunacy. I'm still trying to get my head around the fact the movie is commentated by a horse.)
I never saw the supposed attraction between Lancelot and Guinevere in the movie, even in the Director's Cut. But what if something did eventually bring them together?
Being a slasher my whole life, I had to see Arthur/Lancelot as the first pairing. So, wouldn't that make the situation even more complicated if something *did* eventually bring Lancelot and Guinevere together? And what if the mystery of Mordred wasn't that he was Arthur's son through incest and thus damned, but if his origin were even murkier and harder to explain and to accept?
I think this story will be left pretty open-ended, kind of an alternate myth. But it makes me feel even more sympathetic for Mordred, and I'm wondering if my next KA fanfic will go there, exploring the life of the Fecund Prince . . .
(If I did, who should 'play' Mordred? Could it be a young Colin pleeze, pleeze, pleeze?)
(Oh, the things I'd like to write if I could ever finish all the things I've already started and the things people have begged me to write . . . )
Most importantly, I never think these things out. My stories reveal themselves to me, sometimes only a little in advance of being revealed to the readers. When I wrote Part One, I had no idea what would happen. I just wanted to find a way to change Lancelot's movie fate, and I wanted to use my favorite fanfic obsession (mpreg) to do it. When I wrote Part Four, I thought it might be deliciously mean to ultimately have Lancelot survive Badon Hill and then die in childbirth, with Arthur left to reject his son (Mordred) because of Lancelot's death (evil, no?). And even when I wrote Part Five and Lancelot had the baby, I wasn't really sure how it would all end.
And finally, now, the story has unfolded for me. This is how My Muse (as Taelin calls it) works. I rarely get it right away.
I love fanfic. I just love it.