Just saw the *awful* forecast for the weekend, and it looks like we will, indeed, be slammed with showers. Not sure why this has to happen when it's so critical to us to just have it be dry . . .
I wish this didn't affect me so much. Right now there's so much going on, I have to concentrate on something I can control, not something I can't. It's depressing, though.
There's been so much to write, I just can't do it. I can't keep up with everything going on in my life! I have to realize it doesn't matter and just let it go and write when I can.
Now I'm a racist and I don't respect our veterans, according to the 'public.' This has been my year for hate mail and controversy, no doubt. Now we're in a controversy for excluding an African American group from the parade, even though it was done purely for safety reasons. Nobody cares about the facts, just the emotions.
And me, with all my friends of different ethnicities, ages and sexual orientations -- it would be funny to call me a racist if it weren't so unfair! I haven't been so frustrated since Charlie and I were accused of being trolls at the Legolas/Aragorn list and people, including the moderators, were gacking our IPs and making all sorts of crazy accusations.
Truth is something very fleeting in this world. It doesn't seem to mean much at all. You can be dragged through the mud publically or on a list, and there's never any real recourse, apology or retribution. I'll probably get hate mail for the next two weeks, and no one will care about what the truth of the matter is.
For the first time ever, I've invited the media to an internal meeting tomorrow so they can see for themselves. We'll see what comes of it . . . I just doubt it can get much worse, but I could be wrong.
This year has been a roller-coaster ride, that's for sure. Lawsuits, controversies, issues everywhere. A federal court judge who thinks he knows more than the U.S. Supreme Court and wants to tie our hands when it comes to our rights as an event producer. (Ever hear of Hurley v. GLIB, Judge? You might want to have a law clerk look it up.) And now even the weather gods are against us.
I'm feeling petulant and defiant.
But I have to take a second to commend Leo D. for his fantastic story pairing Colin and Francisco Bosch, "The Spanish Boy." The best read I've had in some time! Wow. I hope Leo puts it up in his journal or Kevin adds it to his website so I can link it. I want to work with Leo on an Alexander/Bagoas story!
I re-read "Scars" last night, and I think I'm ready to finish it. It's killing me, though.
Fandom is usually a wonderful escape. Usually . . . thank God for those times when it is!
Back to work -- I still don't have my scripts and my P.A. announcer meeting is less than three hours away!!!